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Reflections Archive for 2009

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May

DEAR WORLD

You can annotate me with thought, 
but having experienced the Oneness…
I am not coming back.
The Oneness is the Foundation 
to which I AM is returning.
It is between the notes of music,
the soundless which holds all sound.
It is behind the swirling atoms, 
that which cradles and releases them.
The Void to which I am returning clamors not for my attention 
as the world of sensation does,
though this hub of the wheel begets All That Is.

Go through the Pure Stillness to find the real party going on.
We have lovingly thrown away the map...
but our hearts know the way.
My hope, is that when you open the door and see the unknown, 
you will not turn around and go back and sit on the couch of complacency, 
a static spot you think is Knowing-ness, and comfort and security,
the couch you will die on much sooner than you think.
Rise! Pack your canteen of wisdom you can drink from until emptied.
This next death you will not fear.
Even a particle of fear within you will not allow you to pass
into the Pure Light of your true Divinity.
This morning, I could not face thoughts and words, 
waking up cuddled in my blanket of Oneness.
And I cannot face them, still.

It is not that I mistrust them,
they are only a tool for the mind.  
It's the mind I mistrust.
Yes, friend, I most mistrust the ploys of my own mind,
which tries to call me out of Oneness
with reason, and forgive me, logic.
For beyond all THIS thought
is the simple girl I treasure,
who wanders in the fields picking flowers
and watches tadpoles in the stream.
This is the girl I hope you treasure, too.
These are the fields to which I hope you are called.

TIDBITS ON REALITY AND MYSTERY

There are always many ways to look at things. We choose our beliefs and perceptions or are handed them by others, and they are always in flux. All views of reality have merit and purpose, and are part of the creativity and fun of the Game of Life.

We try to tie these all together in a package and make them One, a collective overview… a bundle of the ALL. But they will never be the ALL! As consciousness expands we will have to keep untying the box and putting more views inside and tying it back up. And all the while, Reality is going on outside the box much greater than inside.

I see the beauty in this impermanence. It is mystery, which the soul craves. It’s like the person who wants to know wilderness exists, even though he doesn’t gather his gear and go explore it; his heart feels better knowing wilderness is “out there.”

If the universe truly runs on mathematical principles, and I agree love and harmony are vibrations, and metaphysicians’ contention that one aspect of “God” is principle, there are still many adjoining aspects of creative life beyond structure, and in fact beyond thought and words.

Thus, our ultimate knowingness is a humble un-knowingness, and accepting in awe the Magic of Reality. Our child-like nature, Garden of Eden mentality or virginal mind is re-instated; we become more than a manifestor on a level of visible matter, but dwell in the heart of the Creator of pure Consciousness, by our relinquishment of all that we thought we knew.

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Knowingness is being inside looking out. And as your life unfolds, you emerge… propel… evolve… and bring the inside out. But you remember and retain that connection, and can describe its process, and trace your way back.

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The knowingness doesn’t know that it knows, it is not aware of Itself, but exists before definition. It has innocence. It asks for surprises like a kid at a birthday party. First Cause wanted to have the opportunity to respond, so it pushed the “surprise me” button.

So here you have us! Divine mind, on a rampage of living wild!

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A position of knowingness- is there are many views of reality hanging together on the Xmas tree like baubles; but that tree in the background is there upon which they shine and glitter. Yet, if we try to define the tree we reduce it to a holder of ornamental thought.

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That Ultimate Reality has more sides and layers and depth and dimensions than we can imagine, allows IT to seem a mystery. By residing in this eternal nature, this Mystery, a highly evolved consciousness would know of It. Standing in this knowingness is simply being connected to All That Is!

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I have the deepest respect for mathematics; it is the yang foundation of the galaxies.
But I prefer the yin of quantum physics!
I look at the patterns within the patterns and see the randomness dancing there.
This is how evolution gets happening! Making endless adjustments, one quirk at a time.

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I need no thoughts and words for “knowing;” I know best in the stillness. But it’s OK to have an inquisitive intellect and want such contraptions as thoughts and words.

Just now, I’m listening to the birds in the fields. I was going to count how many different sounds there are and notice their distinctness, but I decided to hear and feel it all as one symphony.

That’s music!

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IN BIRTH

As you know, a mother cannot give up in her final contractions of birthing a child,
though it may seem she is in the arms of a grizzly bear…
teaching it to dance.

This morning, I am being squeezed out the door into my new life.
I breathe into the physical symptoms to release all fear, to relax.
I am giving birth this morning, and I am also… in the birth canal.
The dawn looks different. There are no shadows, no contrast of light and dark in here,
yet I feel surrounded in visceral sticky golden light.

I am turning the inside out,
twisting the cloth of me to wring every ounce of old stale fluid out,
to allow the essence of New Life to imbue me with pure sweetness.