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Winter/Spring 2010 | Summer/Fall 2010 Please return to these pages when you need a break from the unreality of daily living. Step into a heart space; remember who you are, and what this is all about. In these pages, you will find tidbits, as well as reflections:. BECOMING GOD’S MIRROR AT SUFI CAMP (TRANSFORMATION) I thought I was madly in love with God before I got to Sufi Camp; What I learned at Sufi Camp? When I heard the cow mooing in the distance for her food, Most Beloved ONE: I can hardly bare this sweet reunion without tears. THE TRANSITION Living in unconditional love 24/7, invoking all the energy of the Masters, saints and sages, dancing and singing love songs to the Nameless One, created a harmoniously vibrating dimension. There is penetrating stillness in the camp as I walk about invisibly at four in the morning. Only the creek moves, washing away all clinging debris from this band of sleeping merry-soul Sufis. For me, this is the place of surrender. I can easily give up all I have been holding onto that is not my highest Self, as I go gently into the will of father/mother God. The game called “Who I Want to Be” is over, and I accept the mantle “I Am...” When the butterfly emerges from its cocoon, it knows its true nature. I am completion here. The evolved being certainly doesn’t care about the caterpillar it used to be; it has wings now, dazzling wings of light emitting from a heart that has become as big as its body. In addition, it emerges onto a new playground. It hears the words rising in its pristine mind, “Remember where you tied your camel!” Who needs a camel, when you can fly! The Sufis promenaded into the ballroom for Zikr remembrance, ageless queens and kings dressed in jeweled turbans, shimmery beaded shawls, the finest brocade thread dresses, but barefoot before God. They “walk” around and around in one moving circle before practice begins, like the spokes of a wheel. They are the true time/space travelers, born before the creation of the cosmos, gypsy souls who come again and again, always toward the One, to release their final chains and set Life free, and to love away all darkness wherever they go. Not afraid to bow to the Mystery. Not afraid of true surrender, which has taken them from knocking on the gate to crumbling the walls…by their intention to get real. Not afraid to follow their mystical hearts down the roads of dis-illusion-ment and self-less-ness. And not afraid to let go of their last thought of separateness from God. CAUGHT IN THE INHALATION OF GOD It is difficult to write at times, even for you whom I love. It seems to imply separateness- using thought, using position, using “me” and “you.” When you swim in total immersion of the Oneness of All Life, you do not want to come out of the water. I could float in that sea for hours, but without you there, to play together and also be in the stillness together, I am not quite complete. To be who I am, all parts must be Home. So I will continue to write and show you how heaven comes to you, through you. My words merely a trigger for what you already know, who you already are. STORMING HEAVEN’S GATE RETURNING… Ascension to Oneness, is the journey of the One. There is only One, and we are that, so it is your journey as well as mine. There is a storm coming… we are that storm. Positivity is washing clean all hearts and souls that through their steadfast yearning and eternal marching are now standing naked at heaven’s gate. There are many lanterns we carry, until we see by ourselves from the light that we are. We find that we are that light at the end of the tunnel, we were that light all along, and our task now is to gather that light into a rolling ball… and knock down the gates of heaven. It has invited us to do this! Heaven’s gates are the walls surrounding our hearts, and as the walls crumble, we are seeing there is only One Heart resonance here, with ability to manifest heaven! I had a vision of a huge tree, the Tree of Life, standing by a still lake. Many dragonflies of light had assembled on the branches. One more came and landed in the tree of lights, the last one needed, then, the tree exploded, scooped up the lake and burst into creation… as liquid light! This is what we will create, when you know who you are. Are you that last dragonfly we are waiting for? Come! Walk with me on the road to Ascension! We are walking into the sunrise from this day forward. There is no turning around. It’s all chaff and salt back there. We are walking into the future, and we’re finally, holding hands. TIDBITS I want you to love who I love. Why? It will be the greatest love affair in your life! It is the greatest love affair going on across the face of the planet. All of you have your own relationship going on with the Creator of consciousness, its energy or being-ness, no matter what you call it or how you see it; a relationship that weaves together moments of separation and moments of union. Life is simply life loving Itself. It’s clear, if you know who you really are. I kept throwing myself at the gate of God, Your personality is the garment your soul receives to do its dance. In our total knowingness is a total freedom, and perhaps we are a little afraid of that. When I dance the heavens dance, when I play the heavens play, and when I love…the heavens love, because it is their nature and their purpose for existence. Pure Presence is always there just below the surface of my daily activities. When I go to bed I surrender my will to you, but in the morning when I wake up it’s still me. My sadness returns at this union still not complete. How can this be done? Do you not want me? Must I be perfect? Have you not said my imperfections were OK? I will be brave, and wait. Please don’t take too long. Could you put the ladder back out? I leave my shoes here at your door, and my dignity. I surrender all I have and am. How do I strip down to the soul for you? Please put the ladder back down! A PLACE BEYOND DUALITY I like the view beyond separateness or duality, the idea that Consciousness is doing unto itself, that God is re-inventing itself as us. It adds no less purpose to the lives we are creating; the Doer loves to be challenged from its peaceful foundation. That “others” have ever done anything, is a misnomer. God has always done everything. There is no one else ever doing anything. But in that field of consciousness, beneath the doing, is such pure love and peace… it is bottomless, endless, and unfathomable. That is the place I woke up in this morning. Now the words come, here. And soon, thoughts. But just for a moment. Because the blessing of this morning is: I can take myself back there, with a little heavenly will, throughout the day. I can stay there, in the Presence, for a few hours now. Perhaps, I may stay there when I choose to, and come to this other awareness only when I want. Now that is heaven on earth! I drink in the Presence, I bathe in the Presence, and every cell rejoices and remembers that it is the Presence. Even these thoughts, here, these, and this awareness of the Presence, muddies its pristine nature. Sorry, I must go! LONELY MOMENTS OF SEPARATION Where did the sweetness go in this mystery of my sacred path? The stillness of communion waits in the shadows, as my acute awareness of every thought and every feeling and the consequence of every action become a burden. When will I, like the bee, gather enough nectar from the hearts and minds of others, to realize I have enough? Enough to make my own honey. When will someone besides God taste my honey? God can have me; I don’t want me anymore, if the sweetness is gone. Sometimes a heart covers its pain with many words. It’s a way of trying to stay pure and free from the stain of lost love and “what could have been,” when divine love hasn’t shown up in a form you can see and touch that wants to see and touch you, and you watch other couples… and they don’t even know they are seeing and touching God! Where are you, my love, save here deep inside my soul? If you will not come find me… then I will go find you. GIVING VOICE TO THE STILL SMALL VOICE Does the still small voice really want this job? I mean look at me. A huge mass of thoughts trying to dissolve, opinions de-forming, emotions down-sizing, all swirling inside a starship galactica. It’d be like a Jedi, Luke Skywalker, inside a little UFO within an entire solar system of floating debris, calmly calling and finally shouting, “Luke to tower! Do you hear me? Do you copy? Are you there?” And nowhere for him to land, so he can deliver his timely message of utmost importance. But I guess we can recognize the Voice by its stillness. Its quietness. Its whispering. Now, I love God with all my heart, in fact on a scale of 100% I’m in the top 10% of those who love God the most. But why would He (Sorry Mother, it definitely had to be the “He” part of You) make the most important voice you need to hear be the quietest? Just for fun? Let’s challenge these poor humans! It’s like putting the tiny prize inside the box of cereal where you have to dig all the way down to the bottom to find it, spilling half of the cereal out of the box onto the floor. What was He thinking? We know God has a sense of humor, because He designed the rhinoceros. Within duality it is one of the ugliest creatures, but we are asked to see it as one of the most beautiful. And the idea of mystery. That which we need the most is the hardest to discover. Now that’s a carrot on a stick in front of our noses! Now back to the Voice. It is one of the most sacred connections we will ever have to Source. It is the divine creator Father and the shining Son and the holy spirit of the Mother, and no, I haven’t been Catholic for years, though I love all religions peoples- just not their religious doctrine. I love their Masters and not their dogma. The Voice is one voice with many attributes, in fact, the entire universe of guidance, the most holy Spark, including ascended masters and angels, who offer to love and guide us. I am in awe and deepest appreciation of the Voice. Now, if only I could hear it more often! But I’m beginning to listen harder. I invoke It to be more of my Presence. In fact, Its Presence can become or have this body temple and all that goes with it to do what It wants with me. What? No takers? Where’s your voice now. Hellllooooooooo!!! TIDBITS To get above the level of reasoning we must surrender our thought machine and process, which is a lower level vibration then where we want to go. To ask reasoning creatures to surrender up their reasoning to intuition and be brave is like trying to take the gold away from a miser. He believes these churning thoughts are his most prized possession. God is the rootless root. The Unspeakable. Everything else you have heard is an embellishment you added for beauty’s sake, for love’s reproduction or for the sake of your understanding eternity. Sometimes I hear the sounds of heavenly music, just a few notes. A JOURNEY INTO ONENESS WITH OUR SELVES, WITH EACH OTHER, HUMANITY, GOD OR ALL THAT IS, ALL POWERS OF SHIVA/SHAKTI AND YIN/YANG… BECOMING NON-DUAL ENTITIES IN A DIMENSION OF LIGHT. YOUR DIVINE INHERITANCE: You have been entrusted with a garden… the field of mind that is you. It pervades the space of your body, and space around you, including infinite webs of relationships called other minds. We are energy melding and dancing into energy- unlimited and forever- birthing all that rises and passes away. We abide everywhere at once in this electronic plasma, with an infinite array of friends who have realized the Truth and been set free. We are a vibratory choir of creative consciousness, sparks of divinity, who know they live in perfect unlimitedness to create. As Jeshua says in The Way of Mastery, we manifest “the good, the holy, and the beautiful.” Like sunbeams from the Sun, we extend our deepest bliss by allowing evolutionary perfection to flow through us from the Mind of God. Our unobstructed minds rest in union with the Creator, the Source, the Divine. There is only ONE here! The Mind of God is reaching out to call His creation- you- back to Himself, so you can take your role of deliberately loving without ceasing! THE HIVE Like bees to the hive, we are attracted together. Yes, we are the flowers waiting expectantly for the love dew from above. WATER FROM THE WELL I drink deeply of the cup this morning, Drink from me! DE-TOXING THE SOUL I am weaning myself of what I crave, of what I depend on, of what I feel I must have. Then, I will ask myself, “What do you truly want if you could have any thing or condition show up in your life? The magic intention-manifestation genie puts in your shopping cart only your desires of “Yes! Yes!” TIDBITS Belief in oneness is not enough anymore; you can believe in anything- that’s talking the talk. Now is the time for devotion and surrendering to the oneness- walking the walk. Within the light of grace is a clear path, strewn with the flowers of one heart connecting to another as we follow Love’s invitation. My core, my essence, doesn’t need much covering anymore. I am not afraid of the rawness, of what is there, of the nothingness at which people cringe. I witness inside of me the perfect final answer to duality: that nothingness and all-ness are the same state of consciousness. You may not take what others think too seriously, but do you ingest your own thoughts without evaluation? Why! The mind is fallible. To be happy, simply examine your thoughts, and choose which ones to believe in. We are at a time of allowing our authentic selves to arrive. We are not creating them, we are not waiting for them, we are already here. We allow our emergence. MY GOOD FRIDAY REALIZATION Tonight, I was stuck driving down a country road behind a jeep with no passing lane- for 30 minutes; but it was a blessing! The tire cover on the back read: LIFE IS GOOD. Now is that a message from the universe or what! It was Good Friday, and I thought how many Christians this day didn’t think it was good, unless they remembered the outcome of ascension. Driving beneath the stars and galaxies, I reflected on how they expand and contract or “live and die.” Old stars burn out… old matter decays and dissolves… arising as new life elsewhere. It’s all transition, flow, and manifestation at play. “As above so below” is the law of physics, with patterns everywhere, which hints that perhaps, with regard to Jesus, his living to die to live again was just… natural. His ascension was a demonstration of perfected life. And what has this got to do with us? We, too, are living to die someday, and if you believe we have souls, to live again. However, some of us understand this process is occurring at a deeper level of our consciousness, if we choose it, like a magical evolutionary re-birthing. Right now, we are dying in order to live, going through death while still in our 3rd/4th dimensional bodies, in a process called the ascension process. Watching our old egoic selves dissolve can be disconcerting; the little self is dying so the Big Self can live more fully; the old self is falling away so the newer self can rise from its death. If we resonate with this evolutionary call, we wade into its currents, then dive in and emerge downriver- clean and refreshed. We are sloughing off our old selves the way we scrub and wash our dead skin cells down the drain, revealing sparkling radiance just below the surface. Celebrate that life is good, Good Friday or any day, since there is no death, and we are all being born over and over, manifesting as the potential and nature of Spirit everlasting. FROM THE MOTHER OF THE UNIVERSE TO HER CHILDREN If you listen to your hearts, there is a revolution going on. Not loud with guns, but a quiet, soft change, where love does not come and go through an open door, but is lodged within… never to leave… burning unceasingly… glowing in all directions… lighting the soul’s journey and the path forward. Surrender to accepting my blessing, of protection and direction, of resting in my arms as my child, in my lap… as I enfold you. Accept your rightful place as a child of the universe, as my child! For all hearts are mine as we go forth to create from a place of safe wondering and exquisite newness- a new way of living from the heart. The revolution is here! ONE VOICE When someone said, “The world needs to hear your voice,” I thought: There are many nuances and inflections, but there is only one Voice. LIFE IS LOVE’S CONTAGION The only truth, is that Life is evolving on the face of this planet and across the galaxies. All of the play within this field of Consciousness, disguised as stories of souls learning lessons and finally living in peace with one another in heavenly realms… is simply a part of The Great Imagination. We are individually returning to our own true self, and who we are. As a race on this planet we are realizing our sisterhood and brotherhood. Take off the colors of skin, take away the imaginary black lines we’ve drawn all over the planet as “yours and mine,” take away resentment- generations of hate based on misbehavior, not knowing we were only hurting ourselves- as the one race and one Life flowing. Peel away our egoic stance that we have the only view, the only truth, the main religion, the correct political position. Respect and honor this as all part of the Play. CAN YOU FORGIVE LIKE JESUS? Can you say to every person: “I do not judge you by your deeds, I know your essence. Could you forgive someone pounding nails through your hands onto a cross? Relive the crucifixion in your mind. Could you not judge those harming you? THE GOD-VIEW OF FORGIVENESS Eckhart Tolle says, do not try to let go of grievance. Trying to let go, to forgive, does not work. Forgiveness happens naturally (but not instantly) by shining the light on the grievance and seeing that it has no purpose other than to strengthen a false sense of yourself; that your ego’s resentment causes you to carry around a false sense of who you are. Then I realized what Eckhart meant by “who you are?” I wrote the following reflection in response. I do not need to forgive anymore; it is not my job. I am not that important. This True Love is never sorry for anything. This True Love manifests stories for our learning, We don’t need to forgive…we are called to do and be much greater in these times. LAZARUS “Will you be Lazarus for me?” BE THE HEALER THAT YOU ARE There was a butterfly A true healer must be willing to leave it all behind, Let your presence light your own path now, and the paths of those you pass. Don’t ever go back! FROM THE “I AM” SERIES: There is nowhere else to go, there is nothing else to do, but to be who I am. Awareness has taken many years to show me the “I” of I AM- The actions, then words, then thoughts of what composes me. The composer has been kind with this symphony of my heart, sustaining in it a vibration of love. Now the “I AM” of me has shown up! And I finally get it! The dawning Christ in me has incorporated the Father and Mother, allowed in their will, which is the will of my Highest Self. “I AM” is all that I am, and, there is no other, anywhere, ever. The lines of separation are so dim now inside the fullness of my being; the oneness is near complete. I AM will step forward as the army of light… and the world will blaze anew. I offer my life, which is not “little me” anymore, in service, to the Great I AM. What I am stabilizing is not the me I think it is. It’s the “I AM” thinking Itself as me. Every day offers golden opportunities for Its expression. I AM is lifting me and tuning my heart to ever increasing vibrations, levels of mastery, and degrees of light absorption. I balance, poised in the rhythm of divine progress in me and through me. The world is the perfect testing ground for learning to walk through fire and not be burned, as it cleanses all impurities of the heart. By maintaining “the Kingdom within,” aligning with your true self or God connected Self, the Light is invited and allowed to penetrate your cellular structure and memory; it manifests you. Your true I AM Presence, your eternal beloved holy Self, comes to the earth plane still connected to your over-soul in the ethereal planes or dimensions; you are the portal for your best and highest Self to materialize on earth. The Light quickens not only you, it is too vast to be contained, but emits from you as the unconditional love you feel for all of creation and all beings. It’s so easy to vibrate at this level now, since you know who you are. This is how the Kingdom of Divinity is spreading: one heart at a time. |